England

Citizen

I’m stuck in a bloody psych ward what even is this my life is such a joke in the past 2 months I’ve been restrained, injected in the glutes, seen and heard lots of distressing things and I’m just so tired

Philippines

Citizen

Uhm hi:> This day I feel so devastated. Because here in Ph. the students study using modules. So last first grading, I work hard and I always stay awake at midnight so that I can finish my modules. And this week I saw my grades, all of them are high except the math subject. I cried infront of my Math teacher. She explains that I didn't submit my answer sheets. LIKE WHAT THE!!!! I ALWAYS STAY AWAKE AT MIDNIGHTS TO DO THAT FUCKING MODULES SPECIALLY IN MATH AND I SAW MY GRADE 75??!!!! AND I FOUND OUT THAT ALL OF MY ANSWER SHEETS ARE MISSING OR MISPLACED BY SOMEONE. JUST AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH ALL OF MY HARDWOKS ARE GONE. I'M SO DEDICATED TO ACHIEVE A HIGH GRADES AND WAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH I'VE GOT A FUCKING 75!!!!!!!!!!

United States

Citizen

Covid allowed me to finally see how existentially lonely I am. I lost all of my capability to socialize and all of my friends. I don't talk to anyone but my family occasionally but I don't have any strong bonds with anyone. I did have a few online friends for a while but inevitably, I lost them as well. What hurts is that they don't even seem to care that we aren't friends anymore. Everything sucks. Nothing appeals to me anymore and I find myself in a cycle of loneliness and boredom. I went through the fright of seeing my sister's health decline due to covid. She has recovered, fortunately, but It's sad that I have to go through that anyway. I haven't been outside for a long time or socialized overall. I miss my old self. Why can't I go back? I just wish I had someone like I used to.

United Kingdom

Citizen

When the first lockdown occurred I thought it wasn’t going to be that bad but I started to lose friends and my grandad died but I he was to far to travel for the funeral so I became depressed and almost at the end of giving up my life. But, the email that saved me was a congratulations to being offered a place to UOB to study my dream course. it gave me reassurance that I will be okay and that I need to put my trust in God. Fast forward to this current lockdown, it hasn’t been easy especially feeling stressed and alone at home but this year I gained people to support me even when I am feeling at my worse and I know how to get back up when I’ve fallen down. I’ve just found out about this website and wanted to share that even at your lowest point in life you will feel alone but seek help even if it’s just for company; it’s better to be with someone then to feel and be alone X

United Kingdom

Citizen

I’m struggling here with family at home, wishing to die...

uk

Citizen

I was alone before the lockdown, I still am.

 

Just remember it is not ONLY old people who feel loneliness.

United Kingdom

Healthcare Worker

Dear world

 

The last year has made me realise that life just is not what I thought it would be. I have been relatively lucky: I have worked through the lockdowns as a care worker and, although many around me caught Covid, I did not.

What has shocked me is the division and the politicisation of the pandemic. To me it has made sense to get tested, to protect myself and others. More than that, it is a responsibility. So to see it

all get mixed up with politics, left vs right, masks versus anti-maskers, opinions versus science - it’s been a shock.

 

And whilst many good people have stepped up and helped the community, some in power have taken advantage for profit or power. The country I thought I grew up in does not exist. I hope good win out but I fear we are in for a rocky time.

 

 

UK

Healthcare Worker

I am concerned to notice rising intolerance & prejudice during this difficult time of pandemic. There is increase racism, numerous complaints ( true & falsified) by hospital staff ( clinical & non-clinical) against black & Asian clinicians. London publication headline “ THERE ARE 2 PANDEMICS HAPPENING IN UK - COVID & RACISM”. There is little support for people subjected to domestic abuse during lockdown. To reduce the impact of the pandemic, what we need is the opposite ie unity, tolerance & kindness. A lot of doctors are actively planning to retire early or returning to India & East Europe.

 

we need to oppose all kinds of prejudices eg sexism, racism, anti-semitism, Islamophobia, nazism Etc. We need more awareness of Unconscious/ Implicit bias.

 

we can rebuild a prosperous future in a short period if we work together using the plethora of innovation developing so fast.

 

kind regards

 

a UK Medical doctor

England

Citizen

Covid has been a really hard time, especially whilst doing A levels, there’s little to no support and the situation concerning exams is so unknown and keeps getting delayed.

The pressure put on us to achieve high grades when we’ve missed half the year is so unreasonable.

My mental health has declined rapidly I’ve always had issues but I’ve recently had to call my doctors and organise some help.

I feel like students are misunderstood a repeatedly told we are just making excuses for not working yet I’m working so hard and feel completely behind and alone

UK

Citizen

Feeling empty and yet so full. Empty of motivation yet so full of a desire to achieve, to be productive. It's not leading to anything. Just churning away. Acting all calm and collected but my skin reveals the truth. I haven't had psoriasis on my face since I was a kid. But it's there underneath my make-up. Make-up I wear for no one else's sake other than my own - so that when I see my reflection in the mirror I don't see the mess of the person struggling on the inside. I have a loving partner who I live with. But I only see him after 6pm and then he's gone by 7am the next day. And I feel lonely. I know I'm so lucky to have him but I'm lonely. I know it's because I've pushed people away. I don't know why I do that. I'm hoping coming out of this I can overcome a shyness, a weird desire to be alone, to do things alone. Being alone is not all it's cracked up to be. I moan so often about the state of the human race but I've come to realise I actually quite like people. If there's one good thing to come out of this situation we're living in, it's the realisation of how important it is to have contact. How invigorating human interaction and communication can be. I'm going to work on that in the mean time and embrace it when the world opens up again.

United Kingdom

Citizen

Some days I'm tearing my hair out, I feel I actually could do it, some days I'm insane with stress. A special needs child who can't cope with online learning, day after day of trying to satisfy the demands that an ADHD child has, where everything is on fast forward permanently, and there's NEVER enough to fill the gaps. Oh how I'd love some gaps. My own identity a thing of the past, not sure I will ever get it back. Grateful, very grateful, to all those caring for people who are ill and all those who are supporting the lockdown, delivery drivers, supermarket workers etc. But the relationships between parent(s) and children are going to be permanently changed by this, some lucky ones maybe for the better but a lot of us for the worse I'm sure. I'm not sure my child will ever like me again. I feel completely alone with the stress. There is no joy, just survival. This wasn't how I saw my life as a parent!

England

Citizen

There is so much stress and pressure in the world, everyone is using social media more often and it seems to be the only way for us to connect with the people we love. I miss going out and seeing friends, hugging my grandma and eating in a restaurant. I miss my old life and the way it was before. It feels like this pandemic is never going to end and I’m not sure if I will make it through this lockdown.

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